Dear Dell Children’s, If I have to listen to one more radio advertisement about you and your “expert” care for all levels of illness and conditions, to include complex heart conditions, I think I’m going to lose it. Amidst all of the pain, the tears, and most obvious, the loss of the most important… Continue reading Where the Miracles Happen?
My mind is cluttered with a plethora of competing thoughts. The one constant is Palmer. I can’t get the image of him out of my mind, and not just the image of him lying in his bed at Texas Children’s, but also the image of what I have always imagined him to be. The… Continue reading Palmey Bear Brownie Co. What kind of Bear is Palmey Bear? Palmey Bear is a Brownie Bear!
Kristen's Eulogy: I wanted nothing more than to be a mother and I became one on April 1st at 2:03pm to an 8lb 12.8oz baby. But my motherhood journey didn’t start or end the way I wanted it to or the way most mother’s experience. I often go back to the days I had… Continue reading Eulogies to Palmer
It’s Sunday, May 28th, and I sit on my couch listening to music thinking about Palmer. I took screenshots last week of my favorite video of my baby boy. The life, the energy in his eyes is blinding. Some days this energy makes me smile, and others it makes me crumble. Today his light blinds… Continue reading Must we suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune?
Our miracle was born April 1st, 2017 at 2:03pm. Our miracle left this Earth May 17th, 2017 at 4:49pm. Palmer passed peacefully in his mommy and daddy’s arms. His fight was Strong and truly honorable. Palmer is and forever will be a truly exceptional young man. It is impossible to fully express what Palmer means… Continue reading Do you believe in Miracles?
Love is Pain! Pain is Love! Inextricably intertwined, these two emotions are the innate essence of what it means to be human. Pain is both an emotion and a literal response to stimulus, either from inside the body or the outside world acting on the body. Love is a feeling, an emotion that is… Continue reading My Understanding; My Purpose
(Note: These are old pictures from Austin) It was a whirlwind weekend with a lot of frustrations and emotions. I'll never apologize for fighting for my baby boy. But evidently the hospital thought I might literally fight, so that explained the heightened security on the unit, literally! 🙂 I think Palmer will get a kick… Continue reading Fattening the Pig For Slaughter; not on my watch!
As a future parent, or current parent of a child that is diagnosed with a life threatening illness/condition, do not assume the Dr.’s have all of the answers, no matter how prestigious they are, or how highly ranked the hospital is. The fact is, to error is human, and the last time I checked, the… Continue reading Who Slipped Me Crazy Pills?
I’ll forever question certain actions throughout this entire journey, both from the Dr.’s, as well as myself. And I know what you are probably saying, “You can’t do that. You did nothing wrong.” Perhaps you are right, and you can’t know what you don’t know, so it will have to be my job to help… Continue reading The what ifs have the floor. We will be ignorant no more!
Sports have been an extremely influential part of my life. I have always gained acceptance and somewhat of an identity through athletics, and without them, I am not sure what I would have done with my competitive spirit. I tend to draw on sports for life’s truths, or when life gets tough. The current situation… Continue reading Don’t Call It A Comeback